07
Dec

I’ve been dreaming the same thing again and again.. SUCKS. :|

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OKAY FOINE. THIS IS IT, I’VE BEEN DREAMING TOO MUCH, THINKING TOO MUCH, I HAVE TO GET YOU OUT OF MY MIND. [ naks, andrama lang eh, pero serious matter to. :| ], GRABE, SANA BINIBIGYAN NAMAN AKO NG PANAHON MAG-ISIP NG IBANG BAGAY EH NO? NAKAKAINIS, WALA KA NA EH. WALA NA. MATAGAL NA.. ALIS NA KASI, TAMA NA PLEASE? TEKA MUNA SAGLET, SANA KUNG BABALIK KA, BILISAN MO NA. INAANTAY PA NGA PALA KITA. OO, AKO NA BALIW, MASAYA KA NA? ANG GULO KO NO? OO NGA EH, PAREHO TAYO :)))

PS. ISIPIN NYO NA LANG KUNG 1ST, 2ND or 3RD PERSON TO.
NAGSEARCH AKO NG INTERPRETER NG DREAM, ETO ANG MAHUSAY NA INTERPRETATION.
“You have certainly carried feeling with you from the past, and your dreams about it will try to work out some way of feeling at ease within yourself about what happened. This is especially so if difficult or painful emotions were involved. Unless these emotions are freed from your past, they are not available for the present”
**some parts are edited na, I know you know WHY. di kita friend pag di mo alam, kidding! =))
– ANG SAYA MO LANG EH NO? OKAY?! OKAY FOINE? =)) PANG ASAR :| =)) TSEH! BAHALA KA SA BUHAY MO.
BUMALIK KA NA, YUN LANG CHOICE MO EH, BABALIK KA O BABALIK KA? PICK YOUR CHOICE :P
HEH! ANG GULO MO, ERICA =)) KILL YOURSELF, BEBE! =)) [ joke lang, friends :)) ]
07
Dec

Parang kelan lang..

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“hindi sapat ang pag-iisa bilang dahilan sa pagkalungkot at pagkalumbay.. hindi ka naman nag-iisa eh, nandito ako, diba? :)”

Nakaka-adik, parang kelan lang.. pag tinitignan ko mga pictures ko, mukha akong kuting.. ngayon pusa na.. hahaha! ibig sabihin, ang tanda ko na. Oo nga naman! =)) anyways, ang bilis ng panahon.. andami na ring nagbago.. nakakabigla, minsan iniisip ko hindi ako maka-sabay.. pero syempre, kailangan ko habulin ang agos ng buhay.. Ohyea, ang lalim lang eh =)) (salbabida nga, lunod na ko :] ) anyhow.

KAMUSTA KA NAMAN, ERICA?
– okay naman ako, kahit papano.. ngayon, napapatawa na ako, napapangiti, nababawasan na ang mga pagtingin tingin ko sa kawalan at pag-iisip ng mga bagay na di naman dapat..
SO DOES THAT MEAN..?
– hindi naman, aminado parin naman ako na alam ko sa sarili kong hindi ko pa rin ganon ka-tanggap, minsan nga umaasa pa ako. HAY BUHAY!
OKAY LANG YAN!
– salamat naman! :)) [ps. ako lang rin to :)))))]
SO ANO NA BALAK MO NGAYON?
– actually, marami.. thank God at madami kaming activities, badtrip lang pag gabi, nananaginip parin ako :| :(
ANONG MGA NAPAPANAGINIPAN MO?
– yung mga dati parin, mga tao sa nakaraan, ang mga taong pakiramdam ko nasa kasalukuyan, kaso lang sa panaginip, lagi silang walang mukha..
SO ANO KAYANG IBIG SABIHIN NON?
– yung mga tao dati, alam ko naman bat ko sila napapnaginipan, aminado ako, NAKAKAMISS SILA.
E YUNG PANGALAWA?
– yan ang di ako sigurado, pero feeling ko, kailangan ko pa sila maidentify.
OKAY KA NA?
– yep, next time ulit :)
hahahahahaahhaahahahahhaah! :)) isang birong seryoso to ah :))
05
Dec

WALA LANG, NAREALIZE KO LANG :)

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“one of the greatest thing about love, is the existence of the human capability to love..even if it hurts”
– haha ang bigat nung quote, nalimutan ko san ko nakuha yan, pero it’s trulalu. :) Hmm. I was talking to a friend kanina. tapos she’s sharing some kwentos to me, and ako rin.. in short, CHISMAX to. haha! pero i ain’t gonna tell a soul. SYEMPRE.
..pero here’s the thing. MALALAMAN MO NA NAGMAMAHAL KA NG TOTOO, KAPAG NASASAKTAN ka na. HMM. pero eto pa, when you feel a region of your heart is aching.. nako, wag mo isisi sa love na yan, o sa puso mo, kesyo dahil ba nagkamali ka ng minahal? naaah, wala namang taong mali na mahalin eh, it has something to do with your faith lang.. kapag kasi nasasaktan ka, it crushes the faith, so tipong kahit si MR. or MS. PERFECT pa yang JOWABELS mo, ay talaga naman.. it’ll hurt parin like HELL :)
anyways. ano ba ang solusyon dyan? actually, WALA. ay meron, ACCEPTANCE. Lagi mo dapat iisipin na kahit anong pilit mo, if it’s not meant to be, EDI HINDI. diba? Kasi ang problema naten minsan akala natin, yung mga bagay na nagpapasaya satin eh yun na yon. pero, NAH-UH. okay?
LIFE IS UNFAIR, nako naman.. that’s life nga eh. pero ako, though the thought is correct, I don’t think na life IS unfair, sa tingin ko, tayo lang nag-iisip nyan.. kasi porket ba may nawala satin, unfair na? porket ba napunta sa iba yung mga gusto naten, unfair na? ang totoo nyan, fair lang eh. kasi kung nawawalan ka, may babalik, kung may gusto ka, may inaayawan ka rin. It’s logical. :)
TEKA ANO BANG PINAGSASASABI ko? =))
WALA, random thoughts, past midnight na kasi eh =))
C O M M E N T na lang ;D
30
Nov

I JUST DELETED MY FACEBOOK ACCOUNT :(

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HMM. FEW HOURS AGO, I WAS BROWSING THROUGH MY FACEBOOK HOMEPAGE AND WAS REALLY HAVING FUN WITH LOADS OF COMMENTS AND ALL THE SHITS. THEN HERE GOES. AGAIN, I SAW SOME “THINGS” THAT MADE ME THINK OF DELETING MY FACEBOOK JUST LIKE THAT. OH WAIT, LET’S SKIP THE ISSUE AND IMMA ENUMERATE FIRST WHAT I REALIZED AFTER DELETING MY ACCOUNT.

1. I LOST 400++ CONTACTS, INCLUDING MY CRUSHES, LONG LOST FRIENDS, CURRENT FRIENDS AND STALKMATES.

2. MY VALUE IN FFS IS KIND OF HIGH, I WAS 300M+ BY THEN.

3. MY PET SOCIETY LEVEL IS OA HIGH DIN, AND I DIDN’T CHEAT. :)
4. ALL THE POST, MEMORIES AND PICTURES ARE ALL GONE.

5. I WILL SURELY MISS THE THRILL OF SEEING HOW MY PAGE GETS FLOODED WITH ALL MY FRIENDS’ POSTS IN IT.

– HMM. WHY THE HECK I DID THIS? SIMPLY BECAUSE OF THE SAME REASON WHY I USED FACEBOOK, I REMEMBER THE TIMES WHEN FACEBOOK WAS REALLY ON ITS PEAK OF GETTING ON PEOPLE’S TREND AND ALL THAT, THEN I WAS STILL USING MY FRIENDSTER BY THEN. AND THERE’S THIS TIME THAT I CHECKED MY MAIL AND SAW THAT “SOMEONE” HAD ACCEPTED ME AS A FRIEND IN FACEBOOK, AND THAT’S THE START OF ME, GETTING HOOKED WITH THIS SHITNITZ =)) ANYWAYS, BUT NOW IS A DIFFERENT STORY. THE PERSON ISN’T ON MY LIST ANYMORE, AND MY FRIENDS ARE NOW JUST MERELY ASKING ME TO BUY THEM IN FFS, AND TAGS AND THE LIKE.

AND THEN I JUST REALIZED, IF THE PERSON’S NOT HERE IN MY FRIENDS’ LIST. THEN SO AS THIS SHITS. SORRY GUYS :(

14
Nov

I just gotta say what’s on my mind.

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Okay, so the second sem did start not too great but not as bad either, also, I promised to myself that I’ll be doing my best to pay attention in every class and do not tend to play with my subjs anymore. Still, things are still bothering me, or people.. someone.. *sighs*.

So here’s the thing. One time I was so furious about something, a picture actually, I dunno. It got to my nerves the moment the picture sink in to my brain, I needed a friend, I don’t understand it well, or I do, I just don’t want to believe the thing I just saw. So here it is, I was asked just to delete the account of that person over facebook, hell! it was so hard and yet I closed my eyes and yes, I did.

Days passed so slow by then, I lost interest in checking my facebook anymore, I mean, what’s the use? tss. i dunno if what I did was right, okay fine, to some of my friends, It was a lot of progress, but the thing is.. he makes me happy, and yet, he makes me as lonely too. I dunno which is more dominant, what I know it that it complicates my life so much. So yes, I got to choose. Right now, I’m still thinking whether or not what I did is right. If I’ll be looking it as what the results had made, I do feel much lonelier. But I can’t think of any other ways to solve this problem, but to run away.. to flee from the person I used to be happy with. It sucks to tell yourself to act as if you never existed in someone’s life. It sucks, that until the last part of everything, I know I’m holding to myself.. I sucks.. so much. I want you back, but I know, after what I did, YOU WILL NEVER EVER FORGIVE ME. :(

19
Sep

my life advice.. from a good friend :)

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“may point nga sa buhay mo na dumating siya e.. what do you expect? siya lang ba tao sa mundo? mag-antay ka.. hinihintay ka pa kasi na mag-grow. to be wise… and more mature.. marami kasing hinihingi sa buhay. :D okay okay? kaya keep yourself cool..”

– Jasper, the friend, romans and countrymen :))
[sa YM, around 2:45 AM, Sunday, Sept. 20, 2009]
– grabe.. i swear. just give me this year lang.. mag aantay lang ako, pero i’ll be really open to whatever mang mangyare, diba?.. this is my game. pero no matter what happen, i need to be happy. isa pa, tama, I gotta be mature some more, and be wise.. grabe, first time ata tong may nagustuhan akong advice, not that i never liked anything, pero this one’s different, [oh baka maiyak ka na :))] anyhow. ang cooly, kasi this is really different. isa pa, MASAYA AKO. ah basta, ang gulo ba? pero bahala na si batman :) anyhow. sa mga magcocomment, or mga mag checheer for me kahit walang idea kung ano pinagsasasabi ko, ngayon pa lang, salamat na. lalo na ke Pareng JASPER, na nagbigay neto, grabe, nakakahiya naman, lalaki pa nag advice. anyways. hahah! ang cool talaga :))

[sana may natutunan din kayo. nyahaha share to e, yess! :))]

14
Aug

Antagal ko nang walang blog dito.

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Ayon. I must admit, sobrang andami ng hindi nagamit ng FS, kaya medyo hndi ko na rin nagagamit sakin. haha. anyhow. it was weird. difficult. unexplainable. pero no matter how far i go, lagi lang akong bumabalik. so imma stick where i think imma gonna be happy. bahala na. not that im making it a priority, pero basta, all im saying is, im taking all my chances ulit. `coz was some sort of a second chance. tapos, ayon. basta imma prove myself now. I know, i can.. and I will. :)
–sorry maikli na lang ako magblog. masya kasi ako e. sabi ng prof ko sa lit, pag masaya daw at any cost. hindi ka magkakapag express. kasi you’re keeping the happiness pa. siguro pag loner ule ako. imma blog a lil longer :) miss you, friendster blog :D

15
Jul

maybe this time..

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Andami kong gustong sabihin, andami kong iniisip, but just to think of it, I can’t find the rights words to say. I’ve been busy, well, I planned it. Wala lang, gusto ko lang na maiba naman yung views ko. I mean, it was different. Pero bakit ganon? naghahalo halo na yung mga iniisip ko, at kung ano man yon, hindi ko pa alam kung anong nais ko. SO WEIRD. as much as I want to say things, parang andaming hindrances, ako pa ba to? or dahil lang sa mga thoughts ko kaya Im like this? pinapaikot ikot ko lang lahat, and to sum it all up, i can’t seem to get motivated. ano ba? WAH. ang gulo ko, as in. Ano ba nangyayare sakin? I want to breathe. Gusto ko maging okay ang lahat, I want to enjoy everything.. pero parang hindi ko magawa. Even if I try to, niloloko ko lang sarili ko, and this drama’s gettin on my nerves. Tapos ano? EWAN KO TALAGA. I want things, right. Pero I know I’m on the wrong track, eto pa, I cant seem to absorb everything everyone is telling me, motivation, appreciation or anything, parang wala nang space utak ko, what’s wrong with me? BLOODY HELL. This is killing me.

19
Jun

1bes2: ang section ng mga pinagpala :))

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HAYON. ang saya pala sa AB ng UST, astig ng welcoming.. may mga artistang artlets na ubod ng luppppeeeeetttt! as in para kang sumisine sa loob ng room. tapos eto pa, ang ingay ko pa rin as usual, pero anyways. so far so good, nung first day, shempre shuma-shy shy pa kme, pero nung 2nd day, HAYUN! nafascinate na sila sa mga kwento ko nung HS. pano ba naman kasi, ako lang public sci dun. pero anyways. ayos! hahaha.

 

iba ibang tao kami dun, meron tahimik, me madaldal, may malaki ang boses, may korni, may kulot, straight hair, at may.. *ten-ten-tenen!* SUPERMAN! haha. ahhahaha :D di tumagal at nasundan na rin yan ni batman at spiderman, sheeeeemmmaaaays! as in. haha. AYOKO muna magkwento, baka mahuli ako :))

 

AYON. pinag iisipan ko tuloy kung mag shishift pa ako ng course for the next sem, SOMEHOW kasi, though I aint so sure, I feel like AB is where i truly belong.. wala lang, I can feel the satisfaction pa rin naman and to be perfectly honest, [hindi dahil sa mga superheroes sa room] pero ang aastig ng mga blockmates ko, I mean, its like they’re open to whoever or whatever you are. Kasi malalaman mo naman yun the moment you step foot on the room, basta, very heart warming. I hope WE stay this way.

 

at sana kausapin ako ni SUPERMAN. :)) [binabati ko pala sina batman at spidey, sana kilala nyo kung sino sila.. hehe!]

 

–yan lang muna :D ay kaya pala ganyan yung title eh dahil sa prof namin na super galing, pinagpala na kami sa kanya, at masaya kami talaga. basta, sana marami pang mangyare :D

11
Jun

bago ako kumallege.. [mag college! hahaha]

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AYON. napag isip isip ko lang na andami ko palang hindi ginawa nung HS.. lalo na yung mag aral, grabe.. tapos ngayon, I’m getting all the credits ng school ko, naisip ko tuloy.. deserving nga ba ako? naks. dumadrama ako. i mean, c’mon.. sige. I do get good grades actually, higher than expected ko, pero I still sleep during classes, I even slipped some food kahit may lectures and above all, marami din akong kalokohan nun. kamote, sino ba naman ang wala?..

anyways. Siguro, this time, ittry ko na mag aral. kasi sayang yung tuition ko, hindi man ako nagbabayad nun, pero.. kahit na. sobrang sayang. I mean, PUB gradeschool at HS ako, no wonder I dont have loads of online buddies, tska that’s pasci, usually, yung mga tao na nag iinternet dun, yun yung mga tipong alam na gagawin nila for the next day.. or tulad ko, sadyang TAMAD, at masipag lang kapag.. NAP time na. :))

HMM. I’ll be a college girl soon enough. sana maging maayos naman ang buhay ko dun, I may not have those fancy whateverness na they do. alam ko naman na I’m packed with those things they’ll never knew I have, naks! kala mo naman kung ano yun.. 3in1 na kape yung tinutukoy ko. hahaha joke :D
HIGH SCHOOL. madami nga akong napag daanan dun, at masaya naman ako sa mga experience ko kahit medyo kakaiba ang HS life ko. pero anyways, thankful pa rin ako.. haha basta alam na yun :D
what more? wala lang.. pume-facebook kasi ako. hahaha! BACK IN THE GAME na. :D

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